#true story no glory

[whozkay]

Bloody hands: uma história trágica

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@beadickel obrigada por me inspirar a escrever uma crônica de um acontecimento cotidiano.

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Quando você passa os últimos dias, aflita, com medo de estar grávida de seu namorado que você assumiu um relacionamento há menos de três meses, estar menstruada é a melhor sensação do universo! Ora, dado o fato que seu amado já possui dois filhos de outro relacionamento, você tem total certeza de que ele é uma pessoa muito fértil e você poderia ser a mãe de uma terceira criança.

Mas isso, graças aos esforços da ciência, não é uma preocupação atual e você pode enfim relaxar, e, após dar uma aula online às dez da manhã de um sábado, por que não uma festa julina!

Teria sido melhor se não fosse um convite feito quinze minutos antes, mas num dia de inverno com um clima tão agradável, se prender no quarto não era a melhor das opções.

Me arrumei rapidamente, esvaziei meu coletor menstrual para evitar bagunças, até trancei meu cabelo e coloquei uma blusa de flanela para combinar com a vibe.

Apenas dez minutos de caminhada.

As crianças do meu namorado iriam se apresentar, meus sogros estavam lá e os dois pequenos ficaram super felizes em ver "a tia", o que poderia dar errado?

Bem, os dois meninos vomitaram depois de se esbaldar no pula pula, interditando o brinquedo.

Mas o que poderia dar errado? Crianças passam mal, isso faz parte.

Fomos então comprar comida, numa fila que dava voltas pelo espaço, talvez nunca viesse a acabar, mas nada poderia dar errado, além do fato do mais novo estar aos prantos querendo participar das brincadeiras que tinham filhas quilométricas.

Tudo bem. É uma criança que fez quatro anos há exatos cinco dias, não é esperado que ela entenda isso, está tudo bem.

E mesmo depois da fila de 87km, podemos pegar as fichas! Pagamento via pix ou dinheiro apenas. Sem problema nenhum, todo mundo tinha dinheiro... em suas contas bancárias. Em um mundo com transferências rápidas e sem taxa, problema nenhum... certo?

Acontece que por alguns anos trabalhei em telemarketing e aprendi uma coisa: telhas de zinco bloqueiam o sinal de internet. Logo, um galpão coberto inteiramente com telhas de zinco seria um grande problema!

Tentamos de todos os jeitos possíveis conectar em algum sinal, saímos para lá e para cá e nada de conseguir abrir os aplicativos do banco... Tinha como dar um jeito, eu tinha certeza mas outra coisa eu não tinha tanto: nessas andanças, senti um jato de sangue descendo por mim. Hora de esvaziar o coletor.

Quando criança, eu estudei naquela escola, então sabia onde tudo estava, especialmente os banheiros que estavam abertos ao público, ufa!

Fui até lá e eu deveria ter visto que as coisas não estavam no lugar certo, literalmente!

De cinco cabines, duas apenas tinham porta. Uma padrão, que o vaso sanitário estava cheio de... vou poupar os detalhes e a outra para deficientes cuja acento estava brilhando em dourado de tantas gotas de urina respingadas.

Tudo bem, eu não iria sentar, apenas esvaziar o meu coletor.

Porém, aquela posição não foi nada favorável para mim.

Assim que me abaixei e me posicionei, fui retirar o coletor que escapuliu de meus dedos, que consegui com destreza evitar que ele fosse ao chão... mas não seu conteúdo.

Sim, isso mesmo. O chão, o acento, minha mão e minhas roupas, tudo ensanguentado.

— Merda – eu disse brava comigo mesma.

Mas desde que uso coletor, essa não é uma situação atípica e eu tinha um casaco para amarrar na cintura, truque clássico pra disfarçar o desastre.

Peguei o papel higiênico, limpei o grosso do sangue de minhas mãos e fui então levá-las antes de limpar o resto da bagunça.

Congelei.

A torneira estava seca!

Arregacei até o final, na esperança de alguma gota e nada. Nadinha!

Lembrei da regra môr do Guia do Mochileiro das Galáxias: Don't Panic!

Mas acho que nem se eu tivesse uma toalha comigo serviria de alguma coisa.

Gastei mundos de papel higiênico e mesmo assim, o chão permanecia num tom de marrom avermelhado nojento. Eu só pensava o que pensariam quando vissem aquela bagunça! Achariam que sou uma mulher nojenta e desleixada e... MEU DEUS NÃO TERIA COMO DAR DESCARGA!

Dentro do sanitário, sangue escorrendo pelas laterais e eu não poderia fazer nada.

Então desisti.

Envolta em vergonha, tirei o resto do sangue em minhas mãos.

Fui atrás do meu namorado porque havia deixado meu celular com ele, na nossa saga de pagamento e apenas sussurrei: "Eu vou embora"

Os olhos dele se arregalaram e o puxei para um canto mais afastado. Tentava manter o tom mais suave possível. Não queria que ele pensasse que estava partindo por causa dos filhos dele agindo como crianças de 4 e 5 anos, ou por causa dos meus sogros. Expliquei toda a história como se fosse apenas um ocorrido engraçado, mas no fundo eu queria chorar de vergonha!

Ele concordou, disse que estava tudo bem, então fui embora com as mãos e todo meu corpo cheirando a sangue.

No meio do caminho me lembrei que não me despedi dos meus sogros nem das crianças. Desesperada, mandei uma mensagem rápida para ele, torcendo para que ele visse antes que as pessoas criassem uma má impressão de mim.

[6/7 13:17] kay: depois despede do pessoal por mim

[6/7 13:17] kay: meio que minha mão tava cheia de sangue aí né

No caminho, tentei manter o bom humor, pensando em como contaria essa história de uma forma cômica.

Em casa, sentada no vaso enquanto contemplo minha existência sangrenta, pensei: "Se prender no quarto era a melhor opção."

[napalmzombie]

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[gingermintpepper]

Little idle thought I've been having recently but I think Cyparissus' story is very important for characterising Apollo and Apollo's love. It's so easy to think of love and loss as two ends of a spectrum, likewise, so often, death is seen as an ultimate and tragic end in love stories - something final and inescapably tragic, the only force that halts love by separating the lovers.

Cyparissus' story is... not that. Yes, the deer dies and one can conclude then that death is once more at the heart of separating two lovers, but I think Cyparissus specifically requesting to die, specifically begging Apollo to let him grieve forever even after Apollo has done his best to help Cyparissus move on from the accident and Apollo letting him is a powerful thing.

Because Apollo not only puts Cyparissus' wishes over his own, he's also able to see past his own building grief to immortalise Cyparissus in such a way that both grants him his wish and allows other people to glorify Cyparissus as well! And I think such a beautiful thing is something criminally overlooked!

It's become something of a joke that 'all Apollo's lovers turn into plants' but from a functional perspective, flowers are the most brilliant way to keep the spirit of a beloved thing alive. Flowers are like stars - as long as there are humans, humans will always contemplate the nature of flowers and as the god of poetry and song, Apollo creating opportunities for his beloved mortals to be remembered eternally even if they never seized glory in the traditional way is such an intimate and beautiful thing. Even then, Cyparissus is elevated to a similar status as Daphne with Apollo's actions - not merely a plant or flower but one that specifically symbolises him, one that is extremely fragrant and beloved by him. Just as Daphne's laurels were synonymous with glory and victory, Cyparissus' cypress became a emblematic of grief and remembrance. Even today, thousands of years later, people still view cypress trees as mourning trees and plant them in cemeteries and use the ash in incense burnt in remembrance of others. How's that for Apollo keeping his word.

[kacievvbbbb]

Truly from the depths of my struggling heart. Viva La Vida by Coldplay belongs to one Toshinori Yagi aka the one and only All Might.

Coldplay should just sign over the rights of the song at this point promptly too.

[blluespirit]

I sort of like the thought that Zuko and Aang take the Sun Warriors' warning not to tell anyone about the dragons a little more seriously… and they keep it between them. Of course, they trust Sokka, Toph and Katara. Of course they know they wouldn’t tell anyone, but now three people (including Iroh) know the truth about Ran and Shaw. And that’s three too many when you’re trying to keep a secret.

(and there are other people at the temple as well - like Haru, Teo and The Duke - who, while trustworthy, aren’t as close to them as the others, and when it comes to secrets with as much consequence as this one, you can’t afford to take any chances.)

Furthermore, the culture within the Fire Nation since Sozin’s rein has been warped. The culture is not to respect the dragons as the original firebenders, it’s to conquer and kill them. It’s the ultimate proof of your strength as a firebender. All it takes is one mistake before rumour spreads, and people go looking for the ultimate hunt. It’s not something Zuko or Aang can risk.

Whether Katara, Toph and Sokka (and Suki) ever find out the truth is up to you. But post-war, after Zuko returns from a strange, poorly explained trip with a dragon, and eventually develops the ability to use rainbow fire, either the others have some questions about Aang’s knowing look, or they are finally let in on a monumental secret.

[hussyknee]

Baby lioness! 😭

[ellies-enrichment]

we've seen the final sunset - this time we can't respawn

[siena-sevenwits]

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[stitch-me-not]

Took me 3 days to binge the Glory and I need to sit in a dark room for about a week

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

listen i know lots of ppl hate three hopes, especially bc of the gw shenanigans

but listen okay shhh listen hear me out tho

i’ll never forget that feeling i felt when i played the demo before the game was fully out and it told me rodrigue was now playable

i’ll never forget that moment in my life

[angel-maldonado-enthusiast]

For Greater Glory: The True Story of Cristiada (2012), dir. Dean Wright.

[magnusmodig]

╰┈➤ VI TALKS ABOUT THOR/MCU / anon / no longer accepting !

🔥 ( Thor and his relationship with Frigga )

||. Oh, man, Thor/Frigga is an interesting topic - because I feel the thor/mcu fandom tends to really characterize her one of two ways, and both are right and both are wrong.

The FIRST WAY is that "Frigga is a saint who can do no wrong, absolutely adores both of her boys and is the perfect mother" and... while I think that Frigga is certainly a perfectly loving and caring mother (and person tbh.) she very clearly had her FAVORITE son. There's a huge element of neglect towards Thor that goes overlooked in this take that I don't agree with, even if I don't subscribe to the idea that Frigga was purposefully neglectful, either.

....Which happens to be the SECOND WAY that the fandom (mostly the mcu!loki fandom, as usual) mischaracterizes Frigga, and by proxy Thor/Frigga's bond as well. In this take, they make Frigga's favoritism and doting over Loki go too far. To the point where she's passive-aggressive and borderline toxic, just because Thor isn't her precious uwu frost-baby. I am a FIRM believer that even if Loki was her favored son to hang out with, Frigga still didn't love Thor any less. It's just a very complex relationship, overall.

My personal take on Frigga is as follows:

Ultimately: Thor is her son! Her only child! And so is Loki, and I think she loved them BOTH so dearly. At the end of the day though, Thor has to spend his time with the other aesir in the family, and that's not Frigga, it's Odin. Not only that, but Frigga has more in common with Loki, so they have more to talk about in 1:1 moments together. What I think this led to was an unfortunate cycle in which she spent so much energy doting over Loki, making sure he felt seen/heard and had "some sun for himself" that she COMPLETELY neglected to see that her other son was in just as much pain as the youngest was; that while Loki is the underdog, Thor still needed his mother, and DID NOT have it all together. She was completely fooled by Thor's façade just like everyone else. And only realized how estranged they had become when it was too late, and she couldn't reach Thor anymore. (She also died before she could make it right.)

To further explain these two opposing takes, the first characterization comes (presumably) from the following:

Frigga being a very wise and clearly empathetic individual. The "glue" that keeps the family together. (a general observation due to how she interacts with her family. specifically: "[Odin] kept the truth [about you being a frost giant] from you so that you would never feel different. You are our son, Loki, and we your family. You must know that." thor (2011), and immediately accepting jane as her daughter-in-law in Thor: Dark World comes to mind. )

Frigga arguing with Odin about Thor's banishment (deleted scene.)

Frigga (attempting) to assuage Thor's anxiety pre!coronation (deleted scene)

I think this particular take is relatively accurate in characterizing Frigga's motherly nature, yes. But what it neglects to keep in mind is that:

Frigga was complicit in the lie of Loki's heritage. Her line about "Odin" not wanting Loki to feel different can also be read as her using Odin as a bit of straw-man for her own feelings. (@mischiefmodig and I have actually come to the conclusion "not wanting loki to feel different" was originally HER idea when Loki was very small. Odin is too pragmatic to come up with it. BUT when he got older, Frigga changed her mind, and Odin didn't want to tell Loki at that point because it'd cause a meltdown. Which it did.)

Frigga arguing for Thor's sake post!banishment was NOT done while Thor was aware of this development. HE IS NOT AWARE THAT THIS HAPPENED. From his perspective, she never fought for him, and more importantly: even if he did find out AFTER the fact, during his banishment, THOR DIDN'T EXPECT HER TO. In fact, Thor accepts that Frigga disowned him the second Loki lies to his face about that detail in THOR. (Re: "Mother has forbidden your return.") It makes no sense for Thor to believe this so immediately if they were close. (he WAS close to Loki, who he trusts implicitly, especially because he's family.)

While Frigga does attempt to assuage Thor's anxiety before the coronation, the key word here is ATTEMPT. She doesn't succeed. It's actually staggering how badly she misses the mark, and he continues to be largely unfocused and anxious about it. Even though Loki's scene with Thor happened before Frigga's, it was Loki who was able to say what needed to be said to calm Thor down where Frigga couldn't. ("You're my brother, and my friend [...] never doubt that I love you." / T: "How do I look?" L: "Like a king.")

The second take comes from a very loud and large portion of the loki!fandom in particular who absolutely despises Thor as a character and prefer Loki in every way. To the point where, I suppose, Thor is "an abusive brother"... Which makes no sense. It's ultimately a lot of projection. HOWEVER, I can't say it's entirely inaccurate to the favoritism displayed either. Some things I can say Frigga messed up on are as follows:

The official marvel comic (taking place between thor 2011 and avengers) in which Frigga endlessly searches for Loki and refuses to believe he's dead instead of mourning his loss with her husband and son. (Which is saying a lot, given that Thor and Odin both saw Loki attempt suicide by letting go into a black hole.) While she was right in the end, this is ... really negligent at the end of the day. (it puts SUCH a bad taste in my mouth that I refuse to consider it canon since it's not the movie's material anyways. I do think she searched for Loki, but more that she was searching for his body so they could have SOMETHING to bury.)

This scene of Frigga telling Thor that "[he] and your father cast large shadows"... Which is true and not necessarily a bad thing to say, but the line that preceded this was ultimately Thor just asking Frigga if she regrets teaching Loki her magic because of all the trouble (and war crimes) he’s committed with it…. And her answer was no —> proceeds to remind thor that he overshadowed Loki. (I don't think he took that personally or was bothered by it, but the answer isn't exactly well-timed or considerate of ... everything.)

TL;DR: Thor and Frigga aren't close. They're "close enough", but the fact that he doesn't shed tears at her funeral, (he weeps for loki THREE TIMES and is utterly enraged by Odin's death. Hers is the ONLY death thor is witness to where he does not actively react to at all.), speaks of her as if he's speaking highly of a well-esteemed stranger, has no reaction to her attempts to meet his emotional needs, responds minimally to her physical affections (mostly talking about body language, he's very stiff with her in a safe environment vs. a battle environment, as shown respectively), actively shuts her out in a time of mourning (she has to ask sif how her OWN SON is doing post!loki's death), and fully believed that she would not have fought for his right to return home —and in fact, FORBADE IT — with no questioning shows me as much, even if they do have some very soft moments together.

[couldbebetterforsure]

So I watched episode one of Crossroads and then decided to look up the story from the game to read it, and this is my main takeaway at the moment.

[zzzbmgyu]

kdrama recommendations from me ! pt3

the glory -

genre: thriller, revenge tragedy

about: Years after surviving horrific abuse in high school, a woman puts an elaborate revenge scheme in motion to make the perpetrators pay for their crimes.

my rating - 5/5

people's rating - 8.1/10 (from google)

reason 4 the rating - i love how somebody made a kdrama about a true story of people. i love the actors, some parts you may find boring but its a really nice kdrama. you must watch the edits of the glory on tiktok :0

to watch it for free w english captions go to kisskh :)

TW: blood, abuse, trauma

not recommended for people scared of blood, abuse, etc.

based of a true story from korea..

seasons : 2 (both released)

yall gotta wait 4 part 4 ;D



[lamiaceae-doodles]

how would i explain myself nearly 20 years later to little kid me that i’m running a tumblr blog named after a plant family yet has no drawings or posts about plants at all.

like sorry kid, ik u had a hyperfixation on wildflowers and plants but this lamiaceae blog is full of posts about a dude named after a wild mint species.

[thermodynamic-comedian]

if self-ish by will wood wasn't a john gaius coded album, then why would the lyrics be like That.